not much longer

it's finally me. yes. i can type. with two fingers already. but i'm too lazy to try and do the 'capitals'. so, bare with me.

over the last week i've been getting more and more emails asking me how i'm doing, so, i've decided it's time for a personal update. especially since my next appointment with my surgeon is tomorrow and i'm crossing my fingers (and my toes) that perhaps i might get my casts off tomorrow. hoping, hoping, hoping... for a new chapter.

yes. i'm tired of being totally dependent on others. i'm tired of sleeping with hard and heavy arms next to my face on my pillow. i'm tired of not being able to stroke my kids heads without being told "it's scratchy, mommy!" i cannot wait to take a shower on my own. or even soak in a tub and not get pins and needles in my arms that are being balanced on top of my head for most of the time. i'm sick of peeling skin and itchy forearms under the casts. i want to be able to wash my own face. i'm dying to cook and even washing dishes seems like something i would love to do. i cannot wait to do all those little things we all take for granted in life. the little every day things like pouring your own cup of coffee.

however, i have to admit that i have progressed immensly over the course of the month. if i started by drinking through a straw, then now i can lift a cup to my mouth. i needed to be fed in the beginning but now i can even feed the kids, if need be. i can use a public bathroom on my own, as long as i wear the right pair of pants. i can open a door, even if i need to twist the door knob. i type with two fingers not one. i brush my own teeth. i can put on 50% of my own clothes. and no more painkillers. no more waking up with sore arms. no more nightmares. no more swelling. oh. what a blessing.

i'm extremely lucky to have friends, amazing friends, who carried me through the hardest of times at the very beginning, right after the accident. and they have been there for me, for all of us all this time... i will forever feel greatful to each and every one of you! i do not have the words to express the feelings i have, because i just get this overwhelming sense... of love.

thank you!